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wow...its been awhile since ive posted. dang...i guess thats just what happens. anyway, so God has been doing alot in me lately. this year has really just been a constant battle. which is hard, but cool when i step back and look at it. cuz it means He is growing me through all the tough times. but breakaway on tuesday was awesome. ben talked about how sometimes we just need to take some spiritual maintenance and it was just so true about whats going on in my life. for years...especially in high school, i just wanted to run away to some mountains in north carolina and go live in like a log cabin or something for like months. and just chill....get away from all the stuff and just be alone with the Lord. obviously that is hard to do when your 16 lol....and i still dont think i could do it now. and i always thought i was weird for thinking that or whatever and that i should just suck it up and push on. but its not true. every one of us needs that time....and its not just a quiet time in the morning....or the constant communion we should be in with Him.....its a complete separation from this world to be alone with our God.....so that He may refresh us and so that we may examine ourselves, our walk, and our hearts much closer. im really excited cuz i dont know what exactly this is gonna look like or how im gonna just sit and be still for like four hours lol....but i know its gonna be life changing...because i am so quick to get involved with organizations and i try so hard to get involved with all the "christian" things and service stuff and worship times and all that....but maybe this world doesnt need more of that stuff.....mabye we as child just need more time with our Daddy.....

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." -Psalm 73:26

okay, so next time you get a chance, check out Ezekiel chapter 1. its freakin amazing. Zeke gets to see the beauty of the Lord....like just a peek at His glory...and begins to try and describe it. and it kinda reminds me of me when i dont have the words and i just start mumbling and saying stuff. but its so sweet and just such a testament to how beautiful our God is.

God will lift up your head.....

freshman will be here tomorrow.....how freakin great is our God....

"they will be called oaks of righteousness..."- Isaiah 61:3

man how great is our God....He never ceases to amaze me. first off, impact is coming up in just a few weeks and i am so stoked. not only will i be back in CS will all those amazing, goldy aggies hearing about how the Lord has been moving in their lives, i will also get to see all the prayers we have been praying answered as we meet our freshman. im so excited. i know that God has been preparing them and preparing me, and i seriously cant wait. ask aaron and amber, i seriously got up and was bouncing when amber brought it up last weekend lol. but man, tonight made this whole summer worth it. all the trouble of feeling like i was fighting alone, all the struggles, the up and down spiritual battles...and today i was reading Wild At Heart (good book by the way, dont take it as the Bible or anything but he makes some good points) and God just really challenged me to be a warrior. cuz thats what we are. thats what we have to be. everyday is a battle...and we have to keep fighting. so satan may take some slashes at me, but me and God arent going down. nope, im gonna fight my way to God...and if i get some scars on the way, so be it. ill take a few of satan's crew down with me :). but that wasnt the cool part. for those that dont know work has been totally a growing place and an opportunity for me to live the life and be different because i am just surrounded by people with good hearts who arent living for the Lord...they are caught up in this world and they just flat out arent believers and they dont fake it (which was a shock to be...everyone in high school tried to pretend like they were)....anyway tonight i get a text from one of them who says they are tired of all the crap...asking me if i was really happy...and we had spent all last night talking about God...and you know what....as i was driving home from the astros game just praying and fighting spiritually for this girl, i realized that it was all worth it. all the struggles and all the pain was all worth it if God worked through me to touch just this one girl. so to those of you who are tired and weary....to those of you who are heavy burdened...DO NOT LOSE HEART!!!! the Lord, the Mighty One, has called us...and He is with us....and He strengthens us.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." -Matthew 11:28-30....notice He never says that we will be free from burdens....just that He will give us rest....

"But then I will win her back once again." -Hosea 2:14.......thanks for not giving up on me God